How weird is it that I don’t have a standard v-neck grey sweater? Especially when I probably have over 7 different variations of grey sweaters.
As insignificant as this fact should be, I feel like it has a deeper meaning. Like I probably have twenty different types of something but not the standard “thing” I should have.
OR, perhaps — and very possibly — I’m searching for some symbolic meaning that doesn’t even exist.
As if I didn’t have better things to ponder.
Today I realized something while browsing through other people’s blogs randomly. (Something I find slightly intrusive, curious, and yet very addicting.)
Anyways, the thing that I realized while reading other people’s blogs is that “blogging” is still very unnatural to me. (And look at how long I’ve supposedly been “blogging”. Okay, that’s the last time I’ll put that word in quotes. Promise.)
The best blogs that I have read are obviously the honest ones. The ones where inhibitions don’t exist and words seem to flow freely without second thought of “what will people think?” and such.
And that is why blogging is unnatural to me. I am filled with inhibitions and the thought of writing down the things that I think, the things that I don’t say out loud, and then just pushing “publish” leaving any internet-er to come across… it’s unnatural! Very.
To make things worse — I’m the type of person that reads e-mails that I write, no matter how long, short or simple, at least 4 times before I send it out. I’ll read it once for spelling errors. I’ll read it again for flow. And I’ll read it again for clarity of the message. And more often than not I reach a point of reading and re-reading, where I finally have to tell myself: Just send it already!
So picture what type of writer I am when I blog. I think I’ve read this entry at least 5 times and I’m not even finished writing it. Add that to my inhibitions and self-awareness: Did I write too much? Should I say that? Should I say it that way? Is there a better word? Who might read this?
And yet, as unnatural as it is and as much as it brings out my neurotic proofing habits and queries — blogging is something that I want to get better at doing. I really want to be able to write like others whose entries are honest. It seems as though I should be saying “I want to be a better writer.” However, I think the fallacy in that statement is that it doesn’t take into account my desire to be able to write honestly to an open audience (or black hole of the internet — where, if not read, my entries presumably disappear into) which is the crux, IMO, of blogging.
And I think this must be my inexplicable, conscious/unconscious first step. Here we go.
Being a 3L is not boring. I’ve been freaking busy! But I guess that happens when you are involved in extra school activities. I’ll slowly be backing out of that soon enough.
I love this group project. Good looking guys, good looking girls. What a warm picture. ^^v
By far, one of my favorite MVs this year. The hair, the clothes, the style, the dance, the guys, the song — it has it all.
Not to mention – that red hair… I want it!
Enjoy!
[mp3] tiara & supernova – “ttl (time to love)”
can you believe it? how fast time flies when all is good and well at home and with friends.
i’ve been told that 3L is prrrrretty boring. looking forward to it. maybe it will cause me to diddle-daddle here more.
credit: nina’s danbo photos with a nikon.
I just really like this picture. It is currently my desktop.
Words said with sincerity
Preceding actions without integrity
Is a hindrance to moral society.
Therefore, act as if in constant sobriety
To the lameness of oral falsity.
Practice verbal humility
Before speaking so boastfully,
Even if it requires ingenuity.
And remember the consequentiality
From talk that does not lead to actuality.
Live a life of simplicity
By learning to speak truthfully,
Appropriately, and consistently.
Do what you say, and say what you mean.
… are two things I’m liking right now. So here’s some eye candy and 이정현’s “Crazy” MV teaser (I like the song already).
One song I can’t get enough of — it’s been making me feel happy.
The other song *just* came out.
Which is which? I’ll leave that up to you.
I was wandering around the mall today, when something in the Swarovski window caught my eye:
Aren’t they adorable?! I need to get my hands on them.
